Cole Andrew
11.26.09
4ish pm.
15 hours of waiting for this bundle.



it was worth it.
i'd do it again.
for him.

it was only a dream

Ever have a dream that felt so real in the moment? Where you wake up and your heart is racing because you felt like you actually just lived it? I had that feeling this morning. It was the scariest dream I think I've ever had. I was being stalked. conspired against by someone who has a trusting position. set free in a place where i spent a lot of my childhood. and gave myself away to the authority because i left my registration by the dead bodies.

so real. so lifelike. so heated. so dark.

I wanted more than anything for it to be over. I was afraid to fall back asleep after waking up that the dream would start over. Luckily it was peaceful and dreamless.

the way slumber should be.

Friends.

Are what make me not want to leave school. Its scary. the world is scary. More time would be nice. but to do what with? I manage my time fine now... I might be afraid that if i have more time to myself I might really see. my rose colored lenses are just fine for now thank you!

also. I wish I dormed. Not for the college experience... but for more friends.

People are so beautiful. seriously. Look into people's hearts. You'll see. Sometimes people are afraid of what they don't know and what they can't see. Open your heart and mind to someone else's inner beauty. You might even surprise yourself.

seriously.... lol

He's lucky he's my friend

Brady made me do it.

It has me surrounded.

I feel like this past week has had me surrounded by ugliness. Things that make me cringe. fights. attitudes. concerns for no reason. being sick. my personal favorite *cough cough* getting mad at someone for trying to protect them from getting sick.
I dont know how to explain it other than ugliness. I wish my life were full of daisies, hugs, and icecream. however, this week is a week with no daisies. little hugs. and not the icecream i want.

just give me some peace please!