it never ends.

bah. once again.
here i am. in bed. sneezing up a storm.
i guess it was only a matter of time
before dad and i caught the germs that the
rest of the house had.
i need to get better.
who likes being sick?
my immune system needs a boost.
what? i dont know. but it needs something.


Heres to a day of watching movies!
yesterdays list included: happy accidents, step up, just my luck and marley and me.
Todays list will probably be: time travelers wife, keith, hes just not that into you,a walk to remember.
we'll see how the day goes. maybe i'll sleep through the whole day.

I think if i were to get one...

I'd want this.
but just the flower. and the green.
none of that other stuff.
and i'd want it small.
much smaller.


to symbolize my life.
and the beauty that it has turned into.
starting out. terrible things.
here i am today. loving. living. being.
life is beautiful.
so is this lotus.

pastels are fun.

pastels might be my new best friend.
(sorry myrtle.shawn i still love you both)

Look Ma!

NO ARMS!!!!

art.

I bought pastels today.
need to art.
however can not start until tomorrow.
But i think this will be the image
i want to create in pastels.
because of the fun-ness of it.
I'm quite excited for the challenge of it.

Christening

My family. <3

He was a quiet lil peanut.
the only one out of three.

love.

Well it looks like love, and it sounds like love,
And it seems like love, and it feels like love;
And it walks like love, and it talks like love,
And it runs like love, and it skips like love;
And it hurts like love, disappoints like love,
Disappears like love, reappears like love.
And it shouts like love and it sings like love
So guess what, my friend, I think?
I think I got love.


lyrics. Zanna Don't

February 13

not going to lie. I love my brother.

i dont think he realized how cool this photo was when he took it.

i was really into my kung fu moves

he just beat my score.

Days like today make me love spending time with my family.
We had a celebratory dinner at amici's in mt. sinai.
it was great. good talks. good eats. good laughs.
josh and i came home and started playing wii.
and here. the photos to prove it.
love it.
<3

November wedding.

So it took me awhile to edit all these bad boys. but
here are my favorite ones. <3

love.<3

Best man and Maid of honor speeches.

I guess this makes it official?

with this ring...

son giving mommy away.

I wish they smiled. but it's still lovely.

These were the brides.
aren't they lovely?

the bride futzing with her dress.

i think i need a break.
i've seen too much that i cant unsee.
cared too much that i should have never cared about.
and my heart hurts too much, and my heart should never hurt.
photos. a boy. a girl. girl not me. looks slightly like me. you.
I would have rathered you not talk to me than to have seen them.
fb. i dont think i can deal with you.

the day of doom is approaching

Too cute.
however. every year i think i hate this holiday more and more.
Why does there need to be a national day of love?
i love the same people every moment of every day.
i dont need a specific day to showcase that love.
doesnt that make it fake?
also. this is a couples holiday.
(still fake to me)
not being a 'couple' makes me feel lonely.
all couples around me. and im a loser that cant catch someone.
like those cards and flowers and candies all taunt me.
laugh at me. point at me.
whisper things to each other.
"That's the girl that's never been in love on valentine's day. what's wrong with her?"

Something to think about...

"An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind."

-Buddha

"Whenever I watch TV and I see those poor starving kids all over the world, I can't help but cry. I mean I would love to be skinny like that, but not with all those flies and death and stuff." - Mariah Carey

I dont know the context of that but that makes me sick. really mariah?

snow.

There is something about snow that i just adore.

this morning.

it was the way it looked piled on tree branches

with the sun rising right behind.

it was breathtaking

but i was too tired and groggy to even THINK to grab my camera

I'm just a big dope.

On a not so happy side note:

Dad may shovel the driveway,

but he only shovels out HIS car

so that he can leave in the morning.

everyone else(ME) was up to their shins in snow

while trying to get all the snow off my car.

how selfish is he?

a nice path on the drivers side of my car would have been nice

seriously. it would have been.

Day 41. -- snow day

Snow on trees makes me want to sing.

These dead rosebuds make for another lovely photo.
even with snow on them.

I love the way snow lands and collects.

i love snow storms.Dad'll kill me for this photo, but look at the snow he's
THROWING.



Have i ever told you i love snow?

Day thirty eight.

I need.
so many awesome aspects to this photo.
first... those great light circles.
second. the reflection of me taking the photo in the tv.
:o)

i have some soul cleaning to do.

because i dont think i ever put this on here.

hehehe

adorable.

inspire

Today

how i feel.

days like today.

I hate them. I cant think straight. the head is pounding. and the throat feels like someone is trying to attack it with a toothpick. oh and not to mention there is someone in the showroom that is vacuuming. makes my head hurt just a tad bit more.... make it go away please.

9-5 life.

I do not think that I am a fan of this new life that I have been given. for one. weekends. amazing. but they are better when they are not saturday and sunday. everyone has off those days. everyone is out doing their own thing on those days. more traffic. places are busier. For now i have been doing okay waking up at 7. but i am already bored of it. Tired of being in bed at 10pm. I like the night time hours. i miss them. lastly. i hate having off when dad has off. being in the house with him sucks. he is not fun. and he makes a lot of noise. always a bitter taste in the house. i liked working when he was home. i want things back the way they were. *sigh*



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