I love convos like this one.

StArYNiTe329 (1:19:48 AM): ...i hope, for my sake, no one calls you...

mancinoxvii (1:20:34 AM): i hope too

mancinoxvii (1:20:42 AM): also for my sake

StArYNiTe329 (1:20:59 AM): wel then wouldnt that be for our sake? lol

mancinoxvii (1:21:18 AM): haha yeah, but we're both selfish in this relationship haha

StArYNiTe329 (1:21:28 AM): not exactly.

mancinoxvii (1:21:43 AM): but you said "my sake"

StArYNiTe329 (1:22:00 AM): because i wasnt sure if "your sake" hoped the same thing.

mancinoxvii (1:22:59 AM): so then we're both unselfish if I hope for my sake also/

StArYNiTe329 (1:24:05 AM): no. if you're only hoping for your sake knowing that i hope for my sake unsure of your hoping for your sake then that makes you selfish. but if your hoping for your sake unaware of my sake which is unaware of your sake. then we are both unselfish.

StArYNiTe329 (1:24:08 AM):

mancinoxvii (1:26:57 AM): wait whaaat

StArYNiTe329 (1:27:02 AM): haha

StArYNiTe329 (1:27:13 AM): im not sure.

mancinoxvii (1:27:17 AM): Im confused but all I know is how can we both hope the same way and have different results?

StArYNiTe329 (1:27:40 AM): based upon knowing what the other hopes

StArYNiTe329 (1:27:44 AM): and not knowing what the other hopes

mancinoxvii (1:28:58 AM): how would you know what I hope? or do you mean I know what you hope?

StArYNiTe329 (1:29:19 AM): i dont know what you hope until you tell me.

StArYNiTe329 (1:29:23 AM): and vice versa

mancinoxvii (1:29:33 AM): right but who knew what the other hoped first/

StArYNiTe329 (1:29:39 AM): you knew first.

mancinoxvii (1:29:46 AM): ah ok

StArYNiTe329 (1:29:49 AM): because i vocalized it first

mancinoxvii (1:29:51 AM): belive it or not, I understand now

mancinoxvii (1:29:58 AM): I'm selfish

StArYNiTe329 (1:30:05 AM): why are you selfish?

mancinoxvii (1:30:44 AM): becaue knowing what you hoped for, I should have parlayed that into our hopes instead of continuing with my hopes

StArYNiTe329 (1:30:57 AM): ahhhh

StArYNiTe329 (1:31:05 AM): yes. you selfish person you!

mancinoxvii (1:32:56 AM): hahah

day four.

I'm ready for my career..
now that i have my subscription to BACKSTAGE.

Coffee with Amanda.
Needed.
Loved.

Not Pictured: Shopping adventure with Nikki.
a Jumper. A skirt. a birthday gift for my soon to be 13 year old cousin.
<3

day three

How much longer can I truly be at war with my closet?
it's terrible.
right now. My closet is winning.
one day closet. one day.

((when there is an after photo. that will be the photo for whatever day that happens. I hope it occurs in this year!))

day two.

It's a good thing i insisted on taking a photo of victor tonight.
Otherwise I would not have gotten this gem!
This was his way of hiding himself from me.
HA!
I won Victor!

Day one.

The jewish girl. owns holiday lights. mini tree.
Right now. these lights and tree mean something to me. not in a religious way.
but in a way that by looking at them I smile.
I see the pink lights that symbolize all the times Nikki and I went searching for them and came back empty handed. I wouldnt stop searching til I found them. It took me a year to find them. again. My room was christmas lightless for a whole year. it was sad. The tree is special. Nikki gave it to me. So my home wouldnt be tree-less. I have always loved the thoughtfulness of my best friend.


This wasnt taken today. as part of my resolution. This was taken because I love wrapping. And these gifts made me just as happy as the people they were for.

yay for holiday cheer!

I dont think I've ever felt more alone.