some people just dont read the warning...

New Years Resolutions

i've never been one of those people that make resolutions. or one of those people that stick to resolutions for that matter. However, this year, something must be in the water. I feel like something is different. I'm Freer. my heart is lighter and larger. I'm ready to take on the challenges that a resolution has to throw at me. i'm ready to start the new year. with a new mind. an educated mind. a mind that has its own mind. set on its own goals. BRING IT ON!

365 days of photos. one photo a day. that i can use in a portfolio or something in a professional environment. This will help me learn my camera. and to take more meaningful photos. I look forward to the challenge. This will be fun.

gym. gym. gym. the amount of time that i want to spend there in one week. I also just purchased another game for the wii fit. I want to use that the same amount of time that i want to be spending in the gym.

I'm also looking for a healthy mind. a healthy body. a healthy spirit. starting with healthier eats. less junk. more oatmeal. more fruit. more veggies.

lastly. budget. I need to save my money. i need to set a limit for the week of what i can spend. and stick to it. I make enough money where i should be able to save about 500 a month. atleast. instead it ends up to less than 3. how does that happen? Not anymore. I must save and it starts now!

2010. I like you already.

thought of the day

have you ever had multiple people you dont know ask how you are. Actually you're sick and miserable because people are mean. and each time you say I'm good, how are you? what is going on. why cant you just load everything you are feeling onto strangers? I just think its weird that people ask you such a genuine question of how you're doing... and then you lie to them. its odd. And an interesting world we live in.

Cole Andrew
11.26.09
4ish pm.
15 hours of waiting for this bundle.



it was worth it.
i'd do it again.
for him.

it was only a dream

Ever have a dream that felt so real in the moment? Where you wake up and your heart is racing because you felt like you actually just lived it? I had that feeling this morning. It was the scariest dream I think I've ever had. I was being stalked. conspired against by someone who has a trusting position. set free in a place where i spent a lot of my childhood. and gave myself away to the authority because i left my registration by the dead bodies.

so real. so lifelike. so heated. so dark.

I wanted more than anything for it to be over. I was afraid to fall back asleep after waking up that the dream would start over. Luckily it was peaceful and dreamless.

the way slumber should be.

Friends.

Are what make me not want to leave school. Its scary. the world is scary. More time would be nice. but to do what with? I manage my time fine now... I might be afraid that if i have more time to myself I might really see. my rose colored lenses are just fine for now thank you!

also. I wish I dormed. Not for the college experience... but for more friends.

People are so beautiful. seriously. Look into people's hearts. You'll see. Sometimes people are afraid of what they don't know and what they can't see. Open your heart and mind to someone else's inner beauty. You might even surprise yourself.