Food for thought.

It's the new year. Officially. It's here. '09! What is it that I want out of this new year. I have 365 days to make my life into something. If not this year, then maybe '10 will be that year. But lets not get too ahead of ourselves shall we? I do know that graduation is this year, losing 20 pounds is around the corner and continued happiness. Maybe I should change some of my lifestyle in addition to my appearance, how about a boy to last in my life? someone that is just perfect for me in every way. Do I already know him? Will I meet him this year? Is he waiting for me? We'll see... I also want to go green in '09. Be more conscious of the environment and the things that are important. I would like to stick by these things, but do people even make resolutions anymore?

Christmas time is always a sad time for our family. Grandma and Grandpa both died the week before christmas in '99 and '00. Mom and I went to the cemetary on Christmas. It was nice to bring them to the front of my thoughts. I mean I think about them every day whether I know it or not, but just to be standing in front of the tombstone was like "whoa, I have really been living without these people in my life" it was such a shock for me. I mean I used to call them every night before I went to bed when I was in elementary school. I always think, "I wish they could see me in a play, or hear me sing, or watch me act" but I mean I know that they are proud of me and love me, they always have and always will. I wish I had a picture of them on my computer, because I would post it here. When I think of a guy that I want to be with, I try to think of all the qualities Grandpa had. He was the perfect man. He took care of my Grandma like you wouldnt believe. They were so much in love. It was the cutest thing ever. (I of course never realized all this then, but looking back on it, it is so obvious) He was hardworking and caring and loving and funny and I always remember that he gave the best hugs. *sigh* I really do miss them.

Not only was the Cemetary part of my Christmas, but as always there was Chinese food and a movie involved. Mom and I saw four christmases. It was pretty okay. I mean I have seen better movies by the both of them, but overall it was decent. After all that, I went over to Nicole's for the usual Festivities. It was nice and fun.

Day after was a Motley Krew Christmas. Here's just an idea of what we're like...









I also want to keep track of all the things that I learn in this new year. I think its important to learn new things and new ways and what have you. So I'll start right now with a wire hanger will take static out of clothing items by taking the electricity and making it go into the hanger... crazy right???