MOVED!

For your reading pleasure. i have moved my blog and my journey to another page.  since moving to chicago i needed a fresh start. so there is a fresh blog to go along with the fresh start. please head over there and follow my journey!


http://thewindyjourney.blogspot.com/

Thanks so much!

Ever have those days...

where you're just not happy from the moment that you wake up?

Thats how I feel today.

I woke up to the sound of a jackhammer hitting cement outside of my window.

It went on for close to 3 hours. joy.

And then work...

Sitting alone in a room that looks too sterile for 8hrs by yourself...

is just depressing.

I am exhausted and ready to go home.

save me?

A Girl Following Her Dream.

Hey guys
   I am just a girl trying to follow my dreams. Whatever support you can give, I would greatly appreciate it. Spread the word. The more people that see my videos the better. I only just started uploading them. I put a new one up every week! Like me on Facebook and keep in touch with me! This will be one fun adventure for me but even better with you along with me! <3

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work.

when will i have that job where i am excited to go everyday?
when will i get paid to pretend to be a different person in a different time?

this just isnt cutting it anymore.

Winter Photos

Motivation.

Why is it so hard to motivate myself?

I want so bad to look better

but i find myself lounging around more than running around the block.

i find that i want cookies and icecream than fruits and veggies.

ultimately i want the results without doing the work.

and i feel that way with a lot of things

not just how my body looks.

I was watching some infomercials this morning

and i saw this one for the flex belt and i was 

more than tempted to purchase it.

but it was 200 bucks. 

so instead i sent myself over to amazon.com

and found a game on the wii that might help

since wii fit bores me these days.

so theres a fitness one

and a yoga one.

both will be on my doorstep in a few short days. 

I need to do something 

i need that motivation.

any suggestions?

I think a big problem is that I dont have someone that i have to report back to
that makes me do it. I need the motivation from someone else. I need to be accountable for what i do to someone else. I need my trainer back. I was doing so well with her.
*sigh*

CJ Turns 2!

so I know that last year it didnt work so well

so this year i am going to try something a little different

Project 52!

since i am incapable of doing photos every day 

i'll do photos every week

but i will try the whole every day thing.

who knows what will happen!

crazy fun with light!

Kaylee decorating the cake

CJ playing with bubbles

Kaylee stuck her nose in the cake 

and this is what happened.

That'll do pig. that'll do!

never would i....

but i wish i had the balls to do this:

Christmas 2010

My sweet little Christmas Elf <3

Presents under the tree?

That little peanut!! i swear hes the best! <3

crumpled wrapping paper.

hes the flying baby!

what?  you've never seen that before?

So i went on yet another journey to Chicago.

and i auditioned for this.

it's called "The glee project" 

it was a crazy (but wonderful experience).

first of all let me tell you something.

Chicago was ffffrrreeeeeeeeezzzing!

so standing in a line of people for over an hour

outside in the cold.

was not exactly something that i would call pleasant.

however meeting some awesome people 

made it worth it.

I did not do as well as i would have hoped for.

but i learned something about me

and the way i do things.

and i perform out of fear. 

a fear of doing poorly 

and also that these people will kill me or something.

i must get over this mentality that i have.

because i am a damn good singer

but my nerves always seem to get in my way!

more auditions to come thats for sure!

anyway i guess this video will sum up the experience of being in the holding room for all of those hours.

in the audition room we went in 4 at a time. and sang our songs. 

they picked who they wanted to move on. 

and the others went home.

i got there at 830 am. 

was not dismissed until 1pm.

the life of a wann-a-be actor.

haha

Ten Years

Ten years ago today.

was the saddest day for a 13 year old girl.

this girl.

it was the first time she had to deal with death.

losing someone she loved so deeply.

someone she had such a strong bond with.

this person helped to shape who this girl was to become 10 years later.

I miss you Grampa.

I miss the way you used to hold my hand when we would walk around the block.

I miss playing darts in your basement and you always letting me win. (despite how bad i was)

I miss those car rides in your blue station wagon picking out the "purple people eaters" (I still spot them and think of you)

I miss your gentle smile

your sweet hugs

and everything that you have ever done for me and with me.

I love you Grampa!

They always say that a girl looks for characteristics in her soulmate to mimick her fathers.

not me. I look for someone who is like him.

My Grandma was the richest woman in the world for having married such a wonderful man

I hope I am half as lucky.

<3

Winter Air

most see the spring as new beginnings

but i disagree. 

i feel that the beginning starts in winter.

fresh crisp air blowing in my face

snowflakes that tickle my nose

and new adventures to be had.

always start in the coldest of months.

i am ready. 

i am excited.

in two weeks i will have auditioned for 

the reality show to find the next glee star

i will have a different monetary situation

and possible a photography business

(MB sister love. lets chat about this!)

new doors are opening.

and i hope that they lead me 

in a direction that will make me happiest.

I know i am early but i have some new goals for the new year

- write down everything

- practice my crafts

-promote a healthier lifestyle for myself

- get inspiration from everything

- learn more monologues

- do not pass up any opportunites 

- be ready for anything

<3

i love my family.

This is what keeps me going. 

i love my family so much.

i would not trade that little monkey

and that big monkey for anything.

<3

Confessions of a chubby tomboy

Don't miss your chance to see Stacey Smith perform her heart out! Oct 21+22 8pm

at the Clare Rose Playhouse. Reserve your tickets now! 631-654-0199. 

*you wont want to miss this!*

life was simplier...

without facebook....

love gives me hope

As my parents died when I was younger, my grandma brought me up.

My grandma is a strong catholic so when I told her I was gay and getting married, I was expecting a rant off her, but the first thing she said was "so who's the lucky guy?"

People who defy their beliefs for the ones they love GMH.

Happy National Coming Out Day!

So, it's National coming out day
and I just wanted to say how proud I am of all the people in my life
who live proudly and happily as they are.
I cant imagine the courage it takes.
I also can't wait until the world catches up
and realizes it's not about who you love as long as you love yourself first. 

Love is the most powerful thing in the world.
just love.
fall in love. be in love.
Love your other half, your friends,
your family,
and most importantly yourself.
Be proud of who you are, and who you love!

<3

Soon.

so very soon.

October

Since as far back as i can remember

ive been getting sick every October. 

without fail.

strep is usually what takes control of

every fiber of my body.

not this year. 

i bought myself multivitamins 

to soothe my body

i will not get sick this october! 

Healthy month lets go!!